What to say he literally raped me

He is still to good for me. I play bad especially on his serve, I return ball like little anorexic girl...
My serve settings at max but i serve like i have broken arm

In Whole match i hit maybe 5 accelerations of 145 km/h rest of it was slow shots on the middle of court and ofc he know to use my weaknesses. My preparation was awful too.
I think this was not his max. I m scared just to think how could he play at his max.
Gl and won this tournamenet. Idemo majstore
